The Hardest Thing I've Ever Done

Have you ever done anything so difficult that while you were doing it your heart was pounding, your head was spinning, and you had to remind yourself to breathe on a regular basis? I've been there. Regularly! Leaving everything that I love--family, friends, home, familiar culture, language, church--to bring ourselves to the mission field of Guatemala has felt like that. Right now, it feels like that. Trusting God so completely that you've left yourself no other choice, feels like that sometimes.

But, God is good. He knows what we need. He knows what character He wants to build in us. He understands our hearts. He knows our innermost thoughts. He sees our fear. Nothing is new to Him. Nothing surprises Him. Never does He say, "Whoa! I didn't see that coming? How will I handle that?" Or, "Well, I've never seen this before. What do I do now?" No. He is able. He is sufficient. He is completely perfect in all His ways.

This is what I have to know. This is what I need to move from my head, where I can spout all the beautiful platitudes of Christianity with the best of them, to my heart, where the rubber meets the road so to speak. The only way this happens is through circumstances where I find myself in no other place but to trust Him. I don't have a choice. This is where I am. This is where I've been on a regular basis lately.

So, here it is. Today, I'm trusting God with my family, my life, my heart, and to provide in so many ways just like He's promised. That's how it has to be. I trust him for today, this time, this hour, this minute whatever I have to do to get to that point that I don't worry so much.

To quote Beth Moore:

God is who He says He is.
God can do what He says He can do.
I am who God says I am.
I can do all things through Christ.
God's word is alive and active in me.

Let's see how this works.

--Dayle